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What is that I seek in you ?

What is that I seek in you ?

I cannot understand, what is it that I seek in you ?

Are you the most beautiful women that I have ever come across?
Certainly not! And yet you are so breathtakingly beautiful that it takes my breath away.

Are you great to converse with? Of course.
But you know, I do hate your dark sense of humour and yet I want to be eternally conversing with you.

I don’t know what is it that causes me to seek you out. Is there some gap in my life that I want to close with your help?
Naah….. And yet, I seek you like a person in desert searches for water. This thirst is the thirst for life, for finding self.

Do I lust after you?
If to become one with you is lusting after you, then yes! I do lust after you!

May be I seek the divine in you. May be you are not aware of it yet. May be one day you will.

Missing you again!

Missing you again!

You are what occupies my mind, day in and day out. Do you even know this? I find ways and means to communicate to you. Through songs, FB posts, I don’t know what to do when you are not around. Life sucks without you!

पलाश

पलाश

पतझड़ के सूखे पत्तों
ने आग पकड़ी है
अबकी बार ये
पलाश बन कर मानेंगे

When I look into your eyes

When I look into your eyes

When I look into your eyes
It’s like watching the silvery moon
simmer on the surface placid water
It’s like looking deep into a well
and listening your own echo
It’s as if my entire world is there
and it’s as if I an not anymore

When I look into your eyes
Somewhere in the distance
the air play sweet melodies
that only the two of us can hear

When I look into your eyes
I wish I could continue to do so
forever till my last breath

I almost touched you!

I almost touched you!

Yesterday, we were talking and talking about everything – the past and present. I know that we will end up at “us” no matter from where we start.

You were so close yesterday that I could almost touch you. You looked so breathtakingly beautiful. So awesome.  Your spectacled face a delight to see. I sat as I watched you. I could sit like that for hours – doing nothing – Just watching you unfold. See your beautiful lips move and imagine how sweet they are.

You know..I almost touched you. Almost. That craving and hunger inside me is rearing up its head. Someday I will have to ask you if I could touch you.

 

I love you!

I love you!

I have always loved you. Is it important to know the history? How I came to love you ? or even a why?

Now it seems I had always loved you. Now it seems that there wasn’t any time when I hadn’t known you. Was it love at first sight. Probably not. Because it didn’t feel like that. But somehow during all these years (since I have known you) some connection that was there. You can call it whatever you like – infatuation or midlife crisis or FOSLA as you jokingly call it. But whatever it is, your big eyes captivated me for life. And, do the reasons matter? What would I do if I know the reasons today. Love was an accident waiting to happen. And when it happened – I suffered – insufferably.

Now why do I suffer? What do I want from you? What is it that I am suffering for ? I don’t know. Probably I want you all for myself. Probably it’s love – it’s that primal desire to Possess ? I really don’t know. May be I want to posses you completely – heart and Soul with nothing of you left for the world around you. Now I know that would earn me another tag of MCP from you. May be. May be I am the caveman. May be.

I know it’s wrong to think like that, but what to do? What I know today is that I am suffering. Now probably I know how fish feels out of water. Now I feel how you feel when you are captivated by the chains so strong that literally captivate your being. The future is no more a choice for me – it’s laid out there for me. The axe will fall and I will die.

The words in the confines of my chest will no more be there. They will find an expression. These unwritten love letters of mine will find a way. They will find the way just like life does – in the most extraordinary of the circumstances. The truth shall emerge. It has already many times from my eyes. Not from my lips. May be its time. May be.

So here I say – “I love you.” See I said it. “I love you”
I want to say this to you again and again. Till you are assured of it. I know you will see all sorts of trap in it. Ohh…and my love is pure. I want to be one with you. I want to take you in my arms and crush you to bones. I would kiss my way to your heart. I love every single second that I am with you with every fibre of my being. Whether you return this love or not is my choice. It can’t be. But that is what is your choice. Your choice no longer governs mine.

Love you always…